Yes I’m still here, and so are you. Still trying to sort it out, find my new normal I guess. Been thinking a lot about Roxanne, where she is, her being at peace. How the loss has changed me. Been thinking about my parents, wish they were here to help me through. My mom, whose selflessness taught me the essence, true meaning of Motherhood. My Dad, who instilled discipline, confidence, and a hard work ethic into his kids. He slew all the dragons when I was little, and taught me to handle the Real Ones when I got older, like it or not. Both true role models on how to love greatly in life, work as a team, the importance of family, and by their example, that the 10 commandments are not a multiple choice. I miss them both so much. I am grateful for their gifts to me, they have helped me along this difficult journey. Their influence in my life makes me believe what I go through today, will teach me valuable life lessons on how to love, how to give, how to survive this loss without becomming bitter.