What's the difference between grief and mourning? Mourning has company. Grief is more isolating. I try to battle it daily, sometimes by speaking to Roxanne. I'm not sure if it gives me comfort these one way conversations, but I'm hopeful she hears me, so I talk. I sometimes get the feeling Rocky is not peaceful in death. Somehow I think she would have refused the undertaker's arm, slapped it away. Not yet she would say, not yet. Blood of my blood, she may be as angry as I - maybe angrier. She so embraced life regardless of her difficult journey. She so hung on to life. The art of conversation is extrememly tested in these one way conversations. Its like talking into a wind that blows the words back in my face, and yet, I keep talking.